Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Loneliness is an Illusion

Over 3 years ago I took part in a tremendous debacle that involved getting on one knee with a ring and ended with divorce papers. Since this, incident, shall we say I have been single. The Apostle Paul says it is better to not marry. I wish I felt the same way. I do not know if it is in God's plan for me to ever find that "special" person or if he wish me to remain single till the day I die. I pray for the former, but alas it is not up to me. I don't like being single but I have gotten used to it again. Between the divorce, some financial problems, and my only family near, leaving the state, I have had a rough go of it these last few years.

I have felt very much alone for quite some time. But in the last few weeks I have begun to realize more and more, that as much as I have felt like I have been alone, I have not been. God has taken care of me through all of this crap more than I probably even know. He has provided me with some really good friends and even though, they have moved, a very supportive and loving family. It sounds like a cliche, but it is true: No one is alone. God is there if you let him in, for those that have Christ, you need to just remember that he is always there, no matter what your going through.
God has shown glimpse of himself to me through little things lately and it is very encouraging. I need continue to focus on getting more into the Bible consistently, which is very hard for me. It still sucks being single and away from family, but I can deal with it. If it is his will, God will change that for me in his time. I just need to focus on him and everything else will fall into place.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Something new to occupy time!

I haven't had any sort of blog in quite some time. I decided that since all my friends have them and I had an account to comment with, I might as well be cool too. My last blog attempt on that site some of you might remember called myspace was a bit on the depressing side.(one friend told me it made him want to shoot himself) I just finished reading an email from my sister about depressing things which helped me come up with a title for this blog. The title makes me laugh, maybe it will you too. Anyway, despite the title I'm gonna attempt to make this a lot less depressing than my last attempt. Can't promise this will always be happy because I don't like to lie. I'm going to attempt to make the positive far outweigh the negative.
Well that is about all for now, For now I must go beat my roommate at Street Fighter
Peace
Love
and fried mushrooms!