What we do to entertain ourselves is, well entertaining.
I went to church this morning and after had some lunch with friends at an overpriced burger place that for some reason is named after a bird. I then went home and played the new Halo Reach game for about 20 minutes before a friend arrived to play it with me. We played for about two hours. We had to quit you see, quit to go watch a movie with some more friends. We watched "The Town" which was pretty good. Now we are back at my house. They are all playing Rockband while I type this. I don't know what I wanted to do, but Rockband was not it. But they can all have some fun while I actually write on my blog again. Movies and games are my favorite form of entertainment.
I spend a lot, a lot, of time doing things that accomplish nothing. We all do. We go to the movies, play games, go to sporting events. We spend so much time keeping busy doing "stuff" and not doing anything worth while. I feel like I should be doing something good, something important. What that is or how is something that I am at a loss to come up with. The hours I work leave little time that is not late at night or early early in the morning to do anything. Part of the reason I want to join the Army or get a different job or anything else is because I am just wasting away doing nothing but surviving and wasting time on selfish entertainment. I'm letting our Savior down. I just wish I knew what to do to fix it.
I was able to go to church for the first time in a month today. I had to run the projector equipment which usually means I'm zoned out to the praise music and message to make sure everything is correct. Today during praise and worship I was actually able to get into the songs a little bit. For the first time in a very long time I actually felt God's presence with me. I wanted to drop down on my knees and cry. But I had a job to do so I kept working. I pray that I can feel that warmth around me more. I know God is always there, but little reminders like that are most welcome reminders for me.
On a side note: My job still sucks but pays well. I'm about to give up on the Army that could be beat in race by a snail if they can't tell me something soon.
Also spent the last few days hanging out with one of my best friends whom just was married yesterday. I had the honor of being in the wedding along with another of my good friends Zombie. I got to watch two people start their new life together, in Christ. It was a beautiful thing. :)
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Wow, Quickenus, compared to some of the other posts, this one was downright chipper! And, for the fun of it, I'm going to make some suggestions: You can share your income from a challenging but decent paying job with a poor kid through Compassion International (maybe you already do), and then you will be working, not just for yourself, but for them too. When you get together to play games or watch movies, try to invite people who you don't know sometimes, people outside of the church, people new to the church, or someone who just needs a friend, and while you're playing, discover what you can about people so that you can love them and care for them better. Redeem the things you are already doing and then watch to see what else God might bring into your life. In my experience: change in a job or a social setting can be good sometimes, and I encourage you to try and find a job that you can feel good about working. But change often doesn't solve a lot of the things we think it will. As Buckaroo Bonzai says, "No matter where you go, there you are."
I can relate to the first part of your blog.. Many of us, especially young people, don't do much of anything productive for God or ourselves with our spare time, if we have time to spare.. Geez, I've probably gone to church 10 times in the past 2 years.. (I have to work on that...)but good luck with your search for satisfying work, and see you in Oct!
I love Buckaroo Bonzai. That is one of my favorite quotes of all time. And I do have a Compassion Kid. Names Deni, he is about to graduate. :) I big chunk of the rest is my attitude. I have a very very very hard time staying positive.
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