15 days...

15 days until Halloween. 15 Days till the Holiday season from the end of October through the beginning of the new year starts. Its that time when everyone's families get together and spend time with each other, growing closer and catching up on what they have missed.
This is not what I experience.
I've been working in the movie theatre business for 10 years, which is probably 9-10 too long. I have never understood all the families coming to the movies on the holidays instead of spending time at home, but they do. This two month chunk of the year is not much fun for me. I have to work a lot and see all these families together and realize I can't have it. All of my family live far away and they can't afford to come here, and I can't go there unless I want to come home jobless.
I am at work on the Holidays and alone on the days before and after. I miss my family. I have a niece I have only seen once and a nephew on the way that I don't know when I will ever meet. Ive seen my sister once in the last 3 years. And I have seen my parents an average of once a year for the last 3. All the holidays remind me of is how alone I am.
This year is going to be the worse one yet. I really don't want want Christmas to come, I don't know how I am going to deal with it
I wish I could just go to sleep right now and wake up in January 2nd.