Helpless and Angry

I don't like being helpless, I don't really think anyone does. But when something is happening that is directly affecting me and I can't do anything, I want to snap.

It is approximately midnight here in New Mexico, 2am Michigan time, as I write this. I was relaxing, watching TV, when my friend, that at Halloween resembles Fester perfectly, called. He says hello, where is your sup-pump? I say "what?" He then informs me that my basement is flooding up through the water drains. :)
Luckily 5 friends were at my house when this started. And they were all quick enough to immediately gather everything of value(mostly books and electronics) up and out of the basement that they could. I was put on speaker while this was happening. I was randomly being asked questions by the people in the basement and parents in my face. I yelled at my parents to stop asking questions, which wasn't very nice. I then started calling anyone I could think of that would be up at 1-130 am that might have a pump of some sort. No Dice. At this point, I call Fester back and he tells me that everything they could get up they did.
But my floor, border, probably the drywall, 4 couches, some DVD/book shelves, and entertainment center= toast. But hey, thats what sewer water does when it touches stuff.

The worse part is that I won't even be able to check any of this out until two days from now on Sunday night when I fly home. And then when I see the damage, I can't do anything until the next day. I don't know when I am gonna fall asleep tonight, and I probably won't be able to think about anything else until I get home.

Zombie in the past has encouraged me to try to look on the positive side of things. I usually jump right to the negative. I have been trying, and I believe I have been doing better.
I have been very positive lately. Excited about the trip I'm on, excited about even the possibility of a new career, excited that a chunk of stress having to do with $$ and my ex-wife have been just about taken care of. So of course something has gotta happen to knock my arse down and get me out of a good mood. My father and I are both 99.9% sure insurance will not cover close to
the damage that was done. Woo Hoo!

"I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content" (Philippians 4:11) Paul learned to be content in the good and bad. I have prayed for this in my life for longer than I can remember. I'm not sure this is something I am going to ever even remotely succeed at. Though it wouldn't hurt if the good outweighed the bad every now and then for longer that a brief moment. At least thats the way it seems to me for a long time now.

Well I am done venting. I didn't have anyone to talk to so the blog gets it.
Hope everyone that reads this is having a better day than I!

Vacation...Sorta of.

Here goes my tri-monthly or so blog.
Tomorrow in about 8 hours I will be awoken by my father to start our two day drive to New Mexico. I have spent the better part of the last two days cleaning up my house and packing stuff that is going with us. I am official on vacation from two days ago until next Monday. I will spend half of this time "working" and the other half relaxing in the dry heat of New Mexico.

I was excited about seeing my dad for the first time in a year and I am excited to see my mom and cousins for the first time in a year as well. I am not excited in the least to take two days to drive there, but thems the breaks. When I get there, I plan on eating lots of unhealthy food and seeing how many attempts my cousin will use to hook me up with some random females he knows. In general though, I will enjoy 3 days of no responsibility and relaxation.

I'm also excited about taking a long annoying test when I get back from New Mexico to attempt to qualify for the Detroit Police Department. Many friends think it is a good thing for me to do, some think it is not safe so I should not do it. I don't know if it is normal or not, but I have absolutely no fear about the job. It is dangerous but I'm not worried. If God wants to take me, he will, end of story. Besides, I could crash in my plane on the way back to merry old Michigan and getting eating by a shark somehow. (if this happens, I am in NO WAY prophesying)

Well thats all I got for now.
Peace out everyone. See ya in a week.

Customer Realations

I haven't written a blog in awhile now because I can never think of anything to say and, the fact of being too lazy to write.

I have work two very long, very busy days now. After over 9 years (about 7-8 too many) I would hope to be immune to these things but I am not. I am very worn out and frustrated and the extremely self-important attitude of most people it seems. From asking for a phone number and feeling that there is nothing wrong with typing the number in my ear as I tell it to them, to demanding I fix someones in-ability to read a newspaper or listen to and speak to a perfectly working automated phone line. These are just of few of the things that people do to bug the crap out of myself and fellow employees. Someone today called, I said hello and was greeted with "your recording is retarded, so you are going to tell me the showtimes I want!" I don't like being told what I am going to do by someone that has no right to order me about. Everyone seems to care about themselves above all else when it comes to my work at least. It's just a movie, please chill out and see if we can help each other in a polite manor.
I try to be polite and pleasant when speaking to people no matter where or what the business is, even if it is not my fault at all. Another manager got off the phone today with a smile on his face and said "that was awesome." I asked what happened. He said they were calm and thanked him for his help before they hung up. Is that really too much to ask of anyone?

On a side note. It has been storming all day and it is glorious. When God is bowling I smile :)

Sibilings!

"Hey nitsuj, you wanna come with me and Chris? Were gonna go see a movie!"
-Yeah, I wanna go!!!
"Well hurry up and change you fartknocker! we gotta go."
-Just give me two minutes!
"I will be in the car, hurry up!"

Can anyone guess what happen next?
This 4ft nothing redhead would scurry to his room to change and go running outside. He would walk up to his sister's car and try to open the door. He would find himself staring at a maniacal laughing face, as the car would speed backwards out of the driveway, or he would run outside to an empty driveway.

As our former eloquent President said, "fool me ones, shame on you. Fool me twice...I can't get fooled again." But alas I was over and over again. My sister and I, how can I put it...maybe hated eachother a bit when we were younger, just a bit. I was around 12-14 and she was 17-19.
This was one of the many games we played. Another involved me starting a physical fight with her so that our parents would put me, the 12 year old in a corner, and here the 17 year old in another corner :) I would laugh and laugh under my breath, and she would be saying the most vulgar things under hers.

I have been thinking about this a lot lately and Zombie suggested I post it because it is most funny. Back then it was not, but it is funny now. I am amazed at how God works. I have been struggle with a lot lately but when I think of things like this, I am reassured. When I was 14 my parents moved me to Las Vegas about 200 miles away from my sister. That was the beginning of an actual real relationship with her. Then we moved to Michigan(please don't ask why) and she went and got married to a Brit almost 5000 miles away. Since then we have grown very close. I belive if I never moved away from her we may have murdered eachother, or stopped talking period. The first time I think I saw her in person was at her wedding in the UK almost a year after seeing her previously. The fact that God can use a massive amount of distance to help to people that couldn't stand eachother love eachother is amazing. If God can and does do something like that, what else will He do for me and you?

Loneliness is an Illusion

Over 3 years ago I took part in a tremendous debacle that involved getting on one knee with a ring and ended with divorce papers. Since this, incident, shall we say I have been single. The Apostle Paul says it is better to not marry. I wish I felt the same way. I do not know if it is in God's plan for me to ever find that "special" person or if he wish me to remain single till the day I die. I pray for the former, but alas it is not up to me. I don't like being single but I have gotten used to it again. Between the divorce, some financial problems, and my only family near, leaving the state, I have had a rough go of it these last few years.

I have felt very much alone for quite some time. But in the last few weeks I have begun to realize more and more, that as much as I have felt like I have been alone, I have not been. God has taken care of me through all of this crap more than I probably even know. He has provided me with some really good friends and even though, they have moved, a very supportive and loving family. It sounds like a cliche, but it is true: No one is alone. God is there if you let him in, for those that have Christ, you need to just remember that he is always there, no matter what your going through.
God has shown glimpse of himself to me through little things lately and it is very encouraging. I need continue to focus on getting more into the Bible consistently, which is very hard for me. It still sucks being single and away from family, but I can deal with it. If it is his will, God will change that for me in his time. I just need to focus on him and everything else will fall into place.

Something new to occupy time!

I haven't had any sort of blog in quite some time. I decided that since all my friends have them and I had an account to comment with, I might as well be cool too. My last blog attempt on that site some of you might remember called myspace was a bit on the depressing side.(one friend told me it made him want to shoot himself) I just finished reading an email from my sister about depressing things which helped me come up with a title for this blog. The title makes me laugh, maybe it will you too. Anyway, despite the title I'm gonna attempt to make this a lot less depressing than my last attempt. Can't promise this will always be happy because I don't like to lie. I'm going to attempt to make the positive far outweigh the negative.
Well that is about all for now, For now I must go beat my roommate at Street Fighter
Peace
Love
and fried mushrooms!