Things and Stuff.

Haven't posted on her in a bit.

Many things are happening and I'm very confused, here is a quick breakdown:

1st: The military stuff is sorted and waiting for me to have the time off to take two days to go up and sign my life away. Funny thing about that is that I have been at this point for about two months and haven't had a chance to do it, without compromising my job. Before when the Army kept delaying and messing with me I had all the time in the world and now I haven't had a chance. Problems keep happening, maybe that is an answer in itself, but I'm always trying to find a sign for what the crap I'm supposed to do, so maybe I just read too much into it.

2nd: The last thing I wanted to complicate things in my life is a women. But I have one now. She is amazing and so is her daughter. I knew her about 11 years ago and then we lost touch. Talked over the society destroyer that is Facebook a couple months ago and now we are together and its great. It freaks me out because the future I had been planning, military or not, excluded a family. I was just used to being alone. Now that is all upside down(I'm not complaining). This also complicates the whole military deal. Enough of this, on to numero 3.

3rd: I once again find myself in the position of losing a house. Wooohooo. This time its not mine and it was inevitable as soon as my parents decided to abandon me to move to New Mexico. I've been paying for their place with a little help from my friends, but that is no more. So its a ticking time bomb to when I get a bank/sheriff notice to vacate. Although that shouldn't be for at least another 3-6 months, at least. Don't know how this is going to work out. Trying to save money right now so that I can have a chunk of change in order to try and get an apartment somewhere. Hopefully I won't have to get rid of my dog. Anyway I look at it this is a real fun stress point right now.

4th: final thing to note tonight is odd and a bit worrisome at the same time. My neighbor informed me that a cop was banging on my door two nights ago while I was out, looking for me and grilling him for information. The cop left a card in my door. He is a warrant officer for Southgate. In case you don't know what those are, they are the guys whose job is to hand out subpoenas and to arrest locals with warrants. I attempted to call the two numbers on his card. The first was the court house in Southgate and they were closed. The second was a personal cell phone number. I left a message but haven't heard back yet. I'm going to attempt to contact someone tomorrow about this since I'm off. The thing is that as far as I am aware, I have committed no crimes and haven't witnessed anything that would be handled in Southgate or anywhere else for that matter, so I don't know whats going on. But its another stress I don't want or need.

Well that is some of what is going on right now in the adventures of this ginger.
I guess 1 good thing out of 4 ain't bad. :)

Training.

I've got work to put in. My physical abilities must be pushed mucho. Feel free to help me with this. I just ran a 17:10 two mile. This is unacceptable. I must push my cardio and everything else so that I can make these 17 kids look sad when I go.

The End.

What to do?

These times, they are a-changing.
Bob Dylan was an excellent writer, shite singer. but I like him anyway.

But I digress.

I finally got to go to MEPS. Thats the Military Entrance Processing Station. I had less than 3 hours of sleep, got up at 4am and didn't leave until 7pm. But I got the medical clearance I have spent a year trying to get. Now what to do with it? Its funny. I have spent so long trying to get it, I really just about gave up. Now I'm kinda sacred about actually signing up and leaving. I'm going to talk to the recruiter in the next two weeks or so, when I'm not working to see what jobs are available. My hope is for 68Whiskey w/option 40. That's a Medic with a RASP contract. RASP is the training ground for rangers. I could get in and serve at least 4 years, and if I want to get out, I will have a minimum of EMT training and could have a nursing degree. I don't know whats going to happen, but I'm nervous as crap. This bugs me because nothing makes me nervous. Asking a girl out, taking a test, a job interview. but right now I'm jittery. I don't like it.
I still keep praying that this is what God wants me to do. I guess I will find out soon.

It begins again.

Only 6 days into the new year, only 6. It only took 5 for things to turn south again.
My roommate just for all intents and purposes got fired in a non-firing illegal way that he is probably going to be able to make them pay for, literally. This is bad for him. But he can move back to his parents place if he has to and get another job. Me on the other hand, shall be losing a second house in 3 years, at least technically this one isn't mine. I just pay for it.

There is a slight chance something will work out with him and his job or getting another job but its extremely unlikely. I don't want to sound selfish because I know this a a big problem for him. But all I can think is, yippee! What am I going to do this time?? I honestly can not remember a time where I haven't had some sort a massive weight trying to drag me down. Maybe it is supposed to make me stronger, but all I am is tired, extremely tired. The possibility of losing this house and trying to find an apartment or something is frightening.

On the bright side I was able to re-schedule my pre-screening Army physical for the third time for next Thursday. Lets see if they cancel on me again. If that all goes well, being homeless won't be a problem because I will have an Army barracks over my head.

I don't know whats going to happen, but I always assume the worse now. When I have hope, its smashed to pieces. I'm tired. I would like a little rest please Lord, just for a little while.

2011

It is 9:05 am on January 1st, 2011 right now(EST). I am at work. I would prefer to be sleeping, but thats my job. I got up this morning to hear my roomate, whom has lost his mind, still playing the new Call of Duty Black Ops game. I knocked on his door, came in and laughed when he looked at me and asked if I was already up to get ready for work. I nodded and then he said, well guess I should go to sleep then. He was still playing when I left. :)

Not much to report here, just wanted to say that I hope and pray for myself and everyone I know that this year is better than the last, or any before.

Peace.